so yet again another blog , this week has been rather quietish in comparison to all the other weeks

Ive been busy thinking about my life and were am i meant to be going with things .

and Ive decided that education isnt for me at all , i realised this when i put my chef whites back on the other night for my first shift at alma du cuba ( more about that shit hole in a second)

so im steaming straight ahead with space cakez ive got a appointment with some ladies about doing a official buisness plan so i can attack the banks and some funding companys

alma du cuba oml i was horrified seriously like im not slagging the place off im just saying “pre packed ” food such as bisto and there honey comb ice cream is just crunchie bar mixed into pre brought ice cream i mean come on if your going to charge a stupid price for things at least make them by hand

grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

anyway ive spent most of my week in a retreat hotel place , as graham has work so were in coventry . its a bit of a bleak place like but the hotel itself isnt

we had a loverly meal last night too in there 2 rossette resturant , it was divine but the service was a bit bad 2 hours for us to eat and drink and be served but oh well we had each other :)

things are going great for me and graham , ive never been this comfortable with someone in my entire life , its the little things he does that make me smile like driving all the way to liverpool to pick me up instead of getting the train after work and the way he always has some kind of chocolate on him hidden away . hes the first guy that actually gives a shit about me and i love him even more for that

ok so the past 3/4 days have been rather nice / eventful

my boy came up from sandy ( yes thats a place ) on thursday evening , so i booked us a nice little suprise nothing major just some “us time” in a quiet little hotel . and we had some very much needed time away from friends and family and just general crap in life

however the past day or so has been rather bad on both of us

grahams car ( joey the beemer) has broken down , well its his own fault he did like 75 round a 40 slow corner so he blew the turbo out which meant his plan of going home saturday and packing ready for coventry this week has gone out of the window , so he stayed overnight and got to meet the “fuckers” well the dragon and the girls . i cant get over how rude my family were tho to my guest . even graham was gobsmacked .

ok so my mum doesnt like to see me happy , she never has . just because he life is shite she thinks mine should be too . anyhow he got to finally meet her , he crashed over at then this morning he waited for the tow truck to take him to his hire car place , bless

as for me , well where to start , my family treat me like im something they stepped in and my so called friends use me to every advantage they can ( as ive found out)

ive had enough . i want away from all of them and everything in this god forsaken city .

im also giving in my notice on my course too , ive thought long and hard about this and if im to make “space cakez ” a successful business i cant go to my lectures and work and run a buisness all at the same time

heck im not wonderwoman , so yeah handing in my notice tomorrow which is gonna piss mother off even more but i dont care any more ive given up .

yeah so as you can tell stress stress & more stress

OH WELL

root treatment + absess + decay + hole in tooth + chipped tooth = a very painful and sore day for me

yeah ive spent most of today trying to get dental treatment the nhs sucks i swear so i went to a private dentist , pretty costly but i needed to the amount of pain i was and still am in is unreal

YET ALL THEYVE GAVE ME IS SOME ANTI BIO tabs to take to get rid of the infection before they can do the actual root treatment

grrrrr

I WANT TO CRAWL UNDER MY DUVET AND CRY :’(

annoyed.com

ok so today i had a interview for a postion within alma du cuba , guess who got it

MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE :D

yep i start monday its kinda funny like as there seems to be loads going on at the moment .

like things with me and graham couldnt be any better , weve decided to open up buisness together opening a eco friendly vegan/veggie pastisserie. in liverpool city centre . weve got to view the property on friday at 10am . weve also decided to move in together and get a place here as a couple which is dead cute . ok so a few of you are thinking ” god youve only been together for 2 weeks chill it”. but the fact of the matter is were deadly serious about this :)

so ive got this new job , a new man , a new business idea and im kinda enjoying my course . when i say kinda im having second thoughts about being in the music industry ok the moneys there if you get a break , but lets face it there isnt many breaks is there . however im a trained chef and pastry chef so it makes sense to get into the industry as theres always money to be made

so yeah things are looking up

WOOOOOOP

ok so i REALLY need to catch up on my blogging lark i swear .

anyhow ive had a loverly little weekend , my bf and i went camping at a loverly little camp site in prestatyn called nant mill , it was pissing down but soo funny . we couldnt do the tent at first but we soon figured it out and managed to finally put it up after getting a bit wet

putting up tents is soo much easier when your drunk lol

but yeah camping , little meal and drink down the weird welsh pub , it was proper werid seriously bahaha . then a nice trip down the road to conwy castle AND YES it was still pissing it down with rain . then again it always has when ive been at wales . we stopped off after our trek around the castle for a bite of lunch and had the WORST “home-made” cheesecake ive ever had in my entire life i swear it was proper wrong .euh it made both us feel a bit ill

so my weekend has been quite special , weve had some “us” time away from friends and family and what not which was reallly really love . its odd tho like how within the 2 weeks weve got so close , its scary at times . like the way we like certain foods and certain places to travel too , the way we both love the same music . its the little things like that , i guess that make us comfortable around each other

leaving him before tho was awful , seriously i had tears streaming down my face for a good while . i hate good byes , i never seem to or have mastered the art of saying goodbye .

gah oh well

another week starts tomorrow . ive got lectures and more lectures and planning for the 28th event were doing and also kinds of crazy shit going on

so lets see what this week brings then

oh hai 01.07

how are you , im fine ive did a 8 hour shift in work for a company my bfs ex wife works for , fun yeah i know

anyhow id much like it if could go asleep now instead of randomly chatting shit on tumblr and flicking thru my spotify playlists

merci

chan’nel

<3

x

ok so after the recent outburst on people social networking sites and blog sites about myself id just like to say

ive worked damn fucking hard to get were i am today

im a sucessful buisness woman and i couldnt give two shakes of a cats clit if you want to try to bring me down

i run my own companys

www.myspace.com/brutalindustrys - my label/pr company

www.cmtphotography.co.uk - my photography company and review company

im a full trained abc pastry chef and confecionist - dont know what it is then you must be as bright as a 1 watt bulb

im a full trained balmain hair extenisonist and nvq level 2 beauty therapist also im a full trained nvq level 3 and nsi nail tech

im also a trained sound enginer and dj

i have worked damn fucking hard to get were i am today and no rat with a face like a dogs backside is going to try to bring mr down

EVER

so ha

yeah just thought id share that with you all

:3

ok i havent blogged for a little while , mainly due to being so busy with like a million and one things , its good to be busy but sometimes i like a little ME time , who doesnt .

anyhow its freshers week this week which means fayres ,partys, raves and my poor liver getting k.o’d . ive been quite naughty on the drinking front this week well the past 2 weeks out most evenings with friends or just having a sly one in mello whilst im ment to be doing my work.

oh work , yeah that im organising a charity event with like 10 other folk of my course there loverly they really are . however theres one girl who doesnt like me in my class , im not fussed over her like but when she posts things on a certain social networking site about me and my personal life which has nothing to do with her thats when i get annoyed , so i reported her and hopefully action will be taken against her mallicious actions

DONT GET MAD GET EVEN ;)

 also ive met someone so i’d really like guys not to be messaging me asking if they can take me out or the usual ” oh uve got a nice rack the things id do to you / id ruin you / id destroy you ” all that crap so yeah ask someone else cause your barking up the wrong tree

anyhow its saturday ive literally woke up , i fell up the stairs in my gaff as well which has killed my little toe OUCHH :( . i need to clean up my room do my washings and sort my camera out for tonights work

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

:3

ooohkaayy so last night i faced my demons and went to rev , i actually did it . and the fact i didnt give to shakes of a cats clit about if people were chatting shit about me . i wasnt arsed

i went out last min with reece bless him hes such a babe

i got a bit shitfaced , its never a good idea to mix vodka and cider and wine and beer but it was such a good night .

even if i did wear like my lowest cut shirt and people kept trying to motorboat me hahah sly